Well, I’m going to be completely honest with you. Thursday night I re-injured my lower back picking Dash up. I ended up spending the entire weekend laying down as much as I could. I can still only barely hold Dash and I try to do that as little as possible to keep from making the problem worse.
Needless to say, recovering from a back injury was not how I planned to spend this Easter weekend! I had big plans. I had some housecleaning I wanted to catch up on, lots of work I wanted to get done on my blog for you, our church’s annual (and super awesome) Easter Egg Hunt, Ace’s baseball game, Easter church service…the list goes on. And I didn’t get to do any of it!!!
Although I like to take some time to myself occasionally, I am not very good at forced resting. Laying there watching the housework pile up and thinking about all the things that I could be doing is not my idea of a good time. I would much rather be up and working and doing. Even if it’s doing things I don’t enjoy very much. But as I sit here reflecting back over the weekend, I realize that I allowed worry and stress, and let’s be honest, a pity party, to reign supreme in my mind. I’m certainly not out of the woods yet…I’m hoping to see a doctor as soon as possible so that I can get back to my normal self…but I think I could have spent my time more wisely.
I could have read more books with Ace. Or even watched TV with him. Either way, I could have spent more time with him.
Instead of despairing about all the things that weren’t getting done, I should have focused on all the things that WERE getting done. I am not so good at paring down my to-do list to the absolute essentials in these crisis moments. We were all fed on clean dishes, clothed with clean clothes, bathed, entertained, and loved. What more can you ask for?
I definitely could have expressed more gratitude to my husband for all his help. He had to take on all my extra duties on top of everything else he has on his plate. I’m sure my stress over the little (petty) things didn’t make him feel very appreciated.
In fact, I think my biggest mistake of all was simply not approaching this situation with more gratitude in general. After all, this is a temporary injury. It did give me a chance to get a lot more rest and sleep than I have been getting these past few weeks. Plus, how wonderful that my husband could (and did) help me and that I didn’t have any true pressing engagements that needed to be rescheduled or attended to.
It is amazing what gratitude, even in the worst of situations, can do for your attitude and outlook. You may not feel that there is anything worthy of thanksgiving, but if you allow yourself to stop and think, you can find SOMETHING. Even if that something is as simple as having a roof over your head, a warm shower, or a full stomach. It is so easy to take things for granted when life throws you a curve ball – especially when you get caught up in your misery. That curve ball can suddenly look like a 500-foot-tall tsunami threatening to wash away everything you hold dear.
So even though I have been worried about what this coming week is going to be like for me, I’m going to stop focusing on that. (Or at least try my very best!) Every time a big worry or stressor (or even throb of pain from my silly back) hits me, I’m going to make myself think of something I’m grateful for to refocus my mind. And also to keep my eye on what really matters in my life.
Do you need to introduce some gratitude into your heart? What are you thankful for today?